It's {Cait}Too Late To{Gellar} Apologize

[Caitlyn Gellar]

Dearest Mother,

I chose to write to you in a journal because I know you can read this at any time you choose to. So that means you can read it to Tammy as well, but what ever. So, here I am another year at Camp Rock, another year with Lola, Barron, Sanders, Andy, and Tess. Ew..Tess Tyler. I'm glad I haven't seen her yet, because if I have, I would have turned back to my old eatting disorder. (Ya, like the one after you died.)

I met a new friend in class today, her name is Ritchie. People say she has a twin named Mitchie. Interesting. They say that Mitchie isn't someone to hang around, but then again I haven't met her yet so I can't say anything nasty yet. Hopefully thought I won't have to!

Guess who I met at the park? My producing counslior Russel Black. We are a year apart and it's so cool how we both produce. Also, we think a like. We hate the whole summer fling thing, its so pointless! What happened to coming to Camp Rock for music anymore? I just don't get it at all! So, after we talked for a while, I have to admit, Russel is amazing! Although, I can't have a crush. I mean, camper/counslior relationships never work out. Remember my friends? ya, I don't want that to happen to me.

Russel even asked to walk me back to Camp. *sigh* I think its amazing..although more on that later.

But this will knock your socks off though. The other day a first year camper brought my a heart necklace for me to wear on the day of the masquerade dance/party. Although the kid wouldn't tell me who it was from! I wounder who gave it to me? Anyways...I have to go now.

Love You!
Cait.

[Caitlyn Gellar]

Dear Mother,

Hey, I'm back. You know what, I got a letter from dad the other day. Which is pretty awesome because I'm not totally sure about what has been going on lately at home. (Dad says he wants us to move to Italy with his parents) So, I don't know whether or not it will happen. (Hopefully not) I do enjoy visiting, but living there? What is he thinking?! I can't just leave my friends and Camp Rock! I will have to try and talk him out of it.

Anyways, he says that Popop came to visit from Germany, and that he was going to stay for a few months, so I will get to see him after I get home from Camp Rock. Which is awesome, but you know how he doesn't speak English well, so hopefully he will enjoy my music, and hopefully he doesn't think bad of my horrible German! Maybe he brought some of his famous German chocolate with him? Hopefully! I love that stuff.

Bet you want to know more about the necklace huh? Well, I still don't know anything. But the words 'Cait Gellar' is on the back,in fancy writing. I wish I knew who sent it! I don't want to be the only one who doesn't know, because it seems that everyone thinks they know who did send it. Anyways...I wear it everyday now, so...


I have to run now, so

Bye

Cait Gellar

[Caitlyn Gellar]

Dear Mother,

Yes, it's that day again. The day where you and Tammy died, and the day I once again tried to kill myself. Although, it didn't work out all so well. First, your voices where in my head trying to get me to stop, so I tripped over a root, second of all, I screamed when lighting came down and then Russel came and saved me from my impending doom. Then third, Mr. Brown doesn't know what to do with me for the entire day. But, I really feel bad..I made Russel so upset, and it was really all for nothing. And he had to hear my thirty second story too.

I think that he might be mad at me for some reason. I really need to talk to Ritchie, maybe she knows. And as for the necklace, I ripped it off and tossed it away from me, I don't know where. Nor do I care. And as I did that, I just left. I'm in my cabin now, trying to stay away from civilization. And I don't think I can handle it because I really need to talk to someone. I think I should jump in the lake, maybe that is what I'm going to do! Nope, can't someone is blocking the door, and I guess that is how Mr. Brown is going to block me out from doing something stupid.

I wounder what will happen today, nothing probably. And I don't care!!! I think I lost my mind, and my heart is gone. And my heart will never be full again.


Lost....
Cait.